I've tried to hide it for a long time, but I've noticed as I'm getting older (I'm now 46) I'm getting more of an attitude of not caring what other people think of me.

It has always bothered me when people look at me and say, "Smile!" Most of my life, I have felt like I didn't have much to smile about.

My depression has grown steadily worse and it really is difficult to hide these days.

Once I start the downward spiral, I try to hide from the world so they won't see what's going on.