Dizzy and sick today but feeling better tonight. I know T likes this place but I'm not sure it's a good place for me. Thinking about the tapes that play in my head.

1. The world is a dangerous place and if I trust the wrong person I will die a horrible death.
2. Most of the worst things that have happened to me are because I am female. I hate being female.
3. If I tell someone I love them they will die or leave.
4. I'm a bad person and others do not like me.
5. I'm a bad mother, wife, daughter, friend.
6. I'm tired and I want to go.
7, I hate this job, I want to go home.
8. I don't want to be a person.