I'm so proud of you for talking to your T about this granite. It was just a efw days ago that you didn;t think you'de be able to, but look at you! Even if it was mixed up for you- you still did it! Way to go girl!!

I'm also impressed that you are finding value in yourself. When you say that every part of you wants to scream at them to not do this anymore...... it's powerful! Then, you wonder why now it's so important to you to do this. Well- I think it's because you are believing that you do not deserve to be treated the way they are treating you- and you're right! Your sense of self esteem is growing - that's awesome!

If you feel horrible about what T said about your family, it's not a reflection so much on you as it is on them Granite. Do you feel bad about it because you think T was critical about your family or do you feel bad about it because you thinking about what she said made you realize that you missed out on the things you deserved as a child. Things like stability and adult role models that functioned wholly - without acting out and taking it out on a child, making that child expendable so they could live comfortably in their own skins?

I love all the realizations you had this week. I'm so very impressed with the ability you have developed to look at things as they are- right in the face- and deal with them. OMG- you are such an awesome example for me! Thanks granite!