I talk to t about more than I post here. I do some processing of what we talk about here. I read other people's posts to help me process and to get fresh perspectives and because the community feels so welcoming knowing we're all kind of in this together. Same as eastcoaster I'm very open and honest with my t about everything except the one thing that still plagues me, I still haven't been able to ask her for a hug! Yesterday she talked a bit more than usual and asked me a couple of questions that I surprised myself by not being too embarrassed to answer. So I am like geez if I can honestly answer x, why can't I say something so simple as I want a hug? maybe someday.