I managed yesterday without cutting. Today... well, I texted with my t for a while. She apparently has it figured out how awful I am feeling because right away, she asked if it had been at least 24 hours since I cut (based on the DBT rules... she can't talk to me if i've cut within 24 hours.... because I must be doing it for attention... yeah... the cuts only visible to me or my hubby are for attention).

Anyway, today is not going so well. My t wants me to focus on my body sensations and stuff, which is not helping, has never been something that would help, so yeah, I guess I won't be talking to her at all tomorrow....

I'm so tired of life. Tired of being treated like I only SI for attention because I have BPD. Tired of the screwed up way I am viewed because I have a stupid label.