aww dex! you're not in self destruct... you're coping. I don't do dishes but once a week (make my dishwasher work) but have you thought about paper plates and such for a few weeks or so to give you a guilt break for this?

Hey! I'm in bed when I'm on the computer! So watch it, man....

I totally understand though, I do... paying bills, or just opening the mail is a chore an absolute chore... and I have the money to pay for what I spend... what the hay... some end up late anyway and cost me money and bummer depression...

yeah therapists call it progress when we do something outside our normal scope of depression... I don't see it of course, because depression doesn't allow me to. And why do we bother when, with major depression, it proly ain't gonna go 'way no how?

i best quit, can't cheer you up with these feelings. sorry.

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