January, whoooo boy, healing is a long ride, isn't it? I can hear you about the brain going bad frustration. My brain was my best part too. reliable. Then kabooom, there went that.

I contracted meningitis. I couldn't think straight, compute. I couldn't learn. It was a horrible blow. Took 10 years to get back to feeling like I could depend on my head at all. I sobbed more over the loss of my brain than enything else.....

but, I did things to help my brain heal. I made 4,000 paper flowers to get the cross connection back up and running, as it took equal parts of both hands to make the flowers.

I picked a song that especially touched me and my situation (Calling All Angels by Jane Siberry with kd lang), wrote down the lyrics and proceded to try to learn it. I would turn up the volulme and sing my heart out as long as i had the lyric sheet. But, though I practiced every day, I could not remember anything but the chorus...... it was sooo scarey and frustrating i would be sobbing while trying to sing along....... hard to describe what a mess i felt.... oh goddd not my brain tooo......

It's been like 13 years now. I still have sticky parts that don't work right. But, I can think and learn and use my brain again.

AND for inspiration, there's that story last week about the guy in a coma for 19 years whose bain rewired itself and he woke up and is regainng funtion. Visualize your neurons and stuff regrowing. Nothing is static.
)))))))) ) ))) ) january ( ((((((( (((