I'm the same way on all of it. You're not alone. You can read my blog on how I deal with things some days. I'm bipolar II, and BPD. That is what my blog is about. I just want you to know...my bio, is the exact same as yours. I never understand why my husband stays with me...but he does, and I've learned to thank God for him. He has my back, and is trust worthy.