It is nice to know someone else feels the way I do. I mean I am sorry you feel that way but I am glad I am not alone. I am not sure if I have BPD, but it is the only condition that I have found that describes how I feel. It is just a certain weirdness that can't be explained. I try to tell my partner, but that isn't enough. Unless someone feels it they will never understand. I try to tell myself that I don't have this condition, but I really think that I do. The symptoms are to unique. I have been on so many medicines and nothing seems to work. Every medicine I try just doesn't seem to completely help me. I see that you are on Lamictol. I am also on Lamictol. I tried to switch my meds last fall and I had to keep taking Lamictol because of the horrible withdrawal symptoms. When I went to my doctor with these symptoms, she told me she was "done" and she didn't know what to do to help me. I was devastated. It seems that not even doctors understand. Many people do not believe this condition exists and they think it is some sort of behavior. Behavior I feel is manageable, this unfortunately is not. Thanks for listening.