You are not the author of what happened to you. That was somebody else's doing. If you read a book and it affected you emotionally, you wouldn't try to take credit for the book, would you? So why would you want to take credit for bad things that happened to you that were designed by someone else?

On one side, maybe it seems like if you could have done something, then you have power and can keep it from happening again. But you don't have to accept the blame in order to give yourself the power. I'm not familiar with your specific situation, but I am positive that if you could have done something, you would have. Now you are in a better position to protect yourself. You can't control what happened in the past. It's there already. But you can control the present and the future to a much greater degree.

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