Dear PurpleFlyingMonkeys,
Thing are tight everywhere.
Hitting some harder then others.
This is not your fault, you are a stong woman, and will get through this.
I think Perna gave you good advice. But it is hard to get out there without a drivers license and a car! So I would suggest start with that, you can view or download your state manual from your computer.
Then when your mind is calm sit back and think about all the good qualities and skills you have. You are more vaulable then you think.
Sometimes doing child care/adult care is more profitable then a job. Make sure you can get a certificate in cpr. There are free classes at hospitals and community centers.
For now, are there bus routes in your area? If so take a ride and see if something or place of business inspires you.
Sometimes, local Managment will hold you back when in reality there is open opportunity to move up in a company/corporation so seek out the truth!
I hope this is helpful.
Sincerely,
H.