Is there anyone out there with similar experiences to that of the Romanian orphans born in the late 1980's
If anyone has anything please share! I was the first kid out of Romania after the dictatorship fell. First four years of my life are completely blocked. Was told and shown what happened in the orphanage, extreme neglect, extreme hunger, psychological and emotional, and physical abuse. I had no parent figure no schedule, no real rules. I was my mom, I was my dad.
To this day I still can't establish a daily schedule and stick to it. Routines are not something I can adhere to for more than 4 or 5 days. My habits stem from basic needs, can't form habits based from complex needs or abstract needs. My mindset is based on "out of sight, out of mind" when it comes to interacting with my environment. I lose track of not just hours, but even days of the week. No sense of money just the concept of the whole mess is in my simple view, too obscure. And holding a job down is a fantasy. I feel no real allegience to others, I would love for my job to be me alone in a think tank, solving abstract problems. I love to learn, and philosophize, and think of solutions. I find the human being a fantastic piece of work, and I understand but I don't relate very well. So i'm getting depressed by this, and i don't know where to go from here, because the general approach isn't work for me.
And I'm thinking that my orphan years just might have a say in all this
-jes