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As you can see... It's really bad :C However, I don't know what to do! I'm turning 18 in three months and I have absolutely NO SUPPORT. My mom hates me and insults me by calling me a hypochondriac and a psycho b---- whose just out for attention cause no one likes my selfish a--...

My local Mental Health in Tehama County, California won't help me either. I've seen everyone and even filed a complaint, only to have my last chance for help at yesterday's appointment completely fail me :C They stuck me on two medications and they weren't even listening to me! I was telling them my feelings, but I wanted to include my personal outward conflict as well because it can effect your diagnosis. So I tried telling them everything and they just said that they weren't "Mental Health Police, we're just here to get you medication", which confused me because I was only telling them why I was frustrated and stressed out. I am NOT Bi-Polar and they all seem stuck on that diagnosis. When I told them if I could be screened, they were confused and just asked me, "What for??"

Also, when I told them about the harassment and the acts against my rights at Mental Health as they "jerk me around", they said they would get me medication to help stop that. WHAT!? THEN, when I told them about when I get over-emotional that my thoughts, as fast they are already, get faster and faster and I feel as though they're not mine. I also get emotions that, overall, make me think there are different people inside me wanting to say something. When I said that, he told me that is mania. I've been diagnosed Bi-Polar for ten years, I KNOW what Mania is. I don't feel out of control with my emotions and my thoughts are just normal for me. Problem is, no one else can follow them, but they seem so clear to me! He said that they can medication to slow down my thoughts and help me think clearly... UM, WHAT!?

So, all in all, the past six months of dealing with Mental Health as they discriminate against me, degrade me, and just treat me like crap - It's all for nothing. This town is a drug town and that's the problem. When people go in, they don't expect help - They expect drugs and I don't want that. I want to see a counselor who will actually try and help me, give me better options. A counselor who will actually HELP ME. A counselor who doesn't rush out of the door at the end of the session and go, "PHEWWW", in front of everyone and embarrass me... My local Mental Health makes me feel so horrible! And no one will help me defend my rights. Quality Assurance called me three weeks ago to manage it, but she only kept telling me that she would help me get to appointments that I am getting myself to. I am trying to defend myself and she's thinking it's all on me! WHAT DO I DO!? I tried calling Sacramento, CA and Redding, CA but they can't help me... NO ONE CAN HELP ME HERE! I'm so frustrated and tired of all this! Mental Health and their method of "Drugging-Us-Better" ruined my life! I am failing school cause I couldn't stay awake, everyone hates me because I lashed out and never wanted to hang out with them. I was so doped up that I got assaulted, abused, bullied, and so on... Now, I just feel broken down... :c

Sorry for the rant... I just would like someone to give me some options to help myself. Some resources and numbers... Someone who can help me... I already have SSI and Medi-CAL. But if not, at least I got it out there :P

I attached a picture of a reply I got from the Quality Assurance to show how much "help" they truly are :/