i think i have the OPPOSITE problem. i'm totally falling apart after my brther dies on the 13th ans my bfriend thinks im fine. he expects me to go back to work. i'm totally retraumatized. can barely shower. keep switching alters. the one that likes to hurt me keeps coming out. had it in lockdown but now cant seem to put it back. call it an it because dont know if it is a him or her. dont tell him this part because dont want to scare the pants off him. i guess i should write in the dissasociation forum but made friends here when was dxed schizophrenic by mistake.