hi. so last monday my best friend tried to kill herself. she sent me a suicide note when i was at the airport and everything... she went to the hospital and now she is out and she keeps making comments about trying again. i told her dad and im not sure about what is going to happen next.. and all of this stress is making me want to cut really bad. i havent cut in two weeks last monday. idk i feel like a failure wanting to cut, but i am convincing myself to wait until after i get back from the vacation with my family im going to in a couple days,. when i get back though, all bets are off. i know ill cut.