I finished my nursery. All I am doing is sitting and waiting for birth. If I had my baby I think things would be better, but no, Im stuck in a little trailer alone ALL day. and I can't get out.

I know I need to wake up. But right now I am just sitting and waiting and I am ****ing hurt. I just want to grieve and vent, damn it. Everyone is telling me, just move on. Well ****, if I could, I would. But right now, I just cant do anything. I am broken.

I dont want to feel **** anymore.

Everyone is harsh with ME, but noone is harsh with the douchebag that left me for STUPID reasons.