((((Iowa)))) I am so thankful that you posted this...you are not alone in your thoughts nor in your thought process! It's so nice to know there are others that can relate.

When I read your thoughts, #6 of the thread and #7 worksheet to work out your thoughts(questions/answers/turnaround), it read like a pages of out of my own journal and workbook.

I have felt that way as well. I have said those things, as well.

I had a breakthru with T1, where I blurted out the bottom line / real fear ("driver")

... we were both in a hurry, and I was telling her the entire story, but she needed the bottom line, I finally just blurted "it" out.

It had become "me" (that fear) and I never said it to anyone that heard me and listened and cared. Once it was out there, wow! I felt so much better...it was as if a huge weight was lifted off me.

Have you had that opportunity yet with your T, my Friend?

Rose