A week ago I was told there was no wait for the daytime DBT group, but I just found that there is at least a month's wait. That means I may not start until mid-October after all. They will hold my spot when I go away, which is good. Or possibly I can start in September.

This is an example of how I react to disappointment. I want to email my T and tell her right now! I don't want to wait until Tuesday to tell her. I don't want to wait a few months now that I decided to do DBT. What if something happens and I can't be in it?

I feel so sad right now. I was feeling pretty good and now I want my T so badly. I know this is why I need distress tolerance skills.

I know my T wouldn't mind if I emailed her about the DBT group but I want to be strong. It seems so silly because a few weeks ago DBT was the farthest thing from my mind. Now I feel devastated because I have to wait.

I don't like waiting because I am afraid whatever I'm waiting for won't happen. I'm being curious about that. The biggest example of that happening in my life is when I was pregnant and had miscarriages, several times. Or when I wanted to date but I'd go to dances and no boy ever asked me. Or more recently the trip I was supposed to go on this spring. If I don't do something now, it may never happen. That's why I don't like to think about vacations until the last minute. Something could go wrong and I'll be disappointed.

I know I will get over this. It's not the end of the world but it immobilizes me. I have to do some things now and I don't want to. When I feel like this I tell my T I'm sinking into the quicksand and it's SO hard to pull myself out.

Can anyone relate to disappointments like this and what to do about them? I worry how I can cope with major disappointments when I can't cope with small ones!!