I feel for u - I know what that feels like and it STINKS - my dad is dead but I always get this weird feeling about him and normally if someone talks about fathers I turn them off and run - yet I have few memories of him - my childhood is blank in my head - once in a while I will get a sliver of something - one alter told stories of what dads friends did to me - it makes me wonder if he knew what they did or what else happened.... but yea, I agree, don't think bad and assume he is quilty yet - esp if u have no memories of it
these kind of things suck....still going thru this... I really really understand u