You aren't alone. I had a depressive mother who loved us and tried her best - but six kids was just 4 too many,and many a day she just hid in bed; an emotionally distant (but trying hard to be there for us) father; and a ba$tard of a stepfather who singled me out for severe emotional abuse. As if that weren't enough, I had an older sister who was bpd and bipolar or schizo (heavy into the paranoia), and used to do things like trying to kill herself on my birthday, mother's day, or other holidays.

The Brady Bunch we were not!