I wish I had your answer and wish I had the advice to change your life for the better forever but all I can offer is kind words and if this was IRL I would offer a shoulder and hopefully a laugh or two.

I find that seeking acceptance from yourself is more valuable than seeking the acceptance from others (i struggle with this). Seeking acceptance from others involves changing world views and the way people think (wish this would happen as I think overall people are ignorant and malicious). Love the crap out of yourself......