I have been going thru this with the residential program I am supposed to be doing. Back in April, when I was first referred, I was at my breaking point. Then I was put on a wait list. Then I started to feel better. Then they called for an interview. I was ambivalent but went. Then they put me off a few more weeks. Now I am supposed to start next week, but I won't know for sure if insurance is going to cover it until Monday. I HATE waiting. I HATE not knowing things ahead of time. I am a concrete and absolute thinker, and this is stressful for me.

So yea, I get it rainbow. I try to just take a deep breath and say it's out of my control. But that really doesn't make it easier for me.