Thanks so much nightsky, your post brought me to tears. I did do well when I took a month off, but needed to comply with the residential guidelines of having t for at least 3 weekly sessions (I actually did 4). One of the 4 was very good.
I should be going residential next week (fingers crossed) for two-three weeks and I won't see t at all during that time.

I think what I am realizing is that it is very hard for me to imagine another t giving a crap about me. It seems so strange to me that this one actually cares and likes me as a person...I can tell. No one else is going to see past my stuttering to give a s h i t...I just know it.