Okay. My lorazepam has kicked in and I'm feeling so much better. Ugh.. that whole parent thing really got me good. But it made me think just how fragile that line is between being 'ok' and 'not ok'.

it's always been my way of dealing with life to justify and adjust to whatever changes happen. I would change my perspective according to what was happening. But now, perspective is one of the most important things to me. perspective is that fragile thing I am talking about.

I need a solid, constant perspective on life to be ok. it makes it hard to be honest when I am coping cuz it tends to change, to make everything ok. I think it's a talent, a skill to keep a constant perspective and I'm getting ok with doing that. But man, it sure can be thrown for a spin sometimes!

Does anyone else struggle with this?