Hi Shades, Your "sanity score" is overall on the safish side - I'm no professional sanity score reader. But your issues seem to be dissociation, post-traumatic stress, possible borderline personality disorder. It's usually those sort of things that need to get ruled out before a bipolar dx will be given. Especially for kids, not sure your age. From what I hear, meds don't help borderline but therapy does.

Since the county is blowing you off with getting re-dx'd or meds changed. Try to focus on a counselor. The counselor will probably be able to help you. It's a big waiting game with health care in the county, so hang it there.

And if you do end up having bipolar, there is treatment for that too. Both of my older kids, teens, have bipolar, my son liked geodon and my daughter didn't. She felt it made her too sleepy. I take benadryl at night sometimes to help sleep, and it can make me groggy in the morning. Meds are tricky and everyone reacts a little differently.

Really hope you get a therapist or counselor appointment soon. Once a week at least would be best.