hello everyone, i am new here . Was recently diagnosed with BPD.....always knew something was off since i was a young girl (am 28 now) and new that what i was feeling and living was more than just depression.

So, im sure ill be posting in the next couple of weeks, as i have a lot to learn and this seems like a great community!

Anyways, aside from the many issues im facing right now, one of the more prevalent ones in my life is my relationship.
I have gone back this whole past year on the board looking for other relationship posts, but couldn't find much. Also, much of the research i find online is about people who are in relationships with bpd's, but not the other way around. Its hard for us too!

Basically, is it possible to feel real true love in a relationship (for us)? I have had several long term relationships and am living with my current boyfriend. I...i just dont think i love him. I did, or at least i thought i did, when we met, but its more than just "faded"...it's gone completely. He adores every single part of me and in ways i adore him, but i dont really care. I just feel such a strong indifference that its overwhelming. I cant help but think that maybe its due to this disorder and not the relationship. I am not affectionate anymore, i dont miss him, i dont kiss him....
Its hurting him too but i dont know how to get out of this funk.

Has anyone else felt or gone through this before? Is there hope? What is it like for a bpd to be in love??

Any questions are welcomed and will be answered.