i feel the same way you do about taking meds. i have depression and i feel like ranning. i am just like you so sick of it all and so sick of those who say they care but do not or not the way you like them too. and i find sometimes doctors can not help the way you want them too. i find finding someone who is going through the things you are helps. it helps me.

and you hate the nights i like the nights i hate the days.