I had surgery on June 30. What I had done I am feeling that I wish I did not have done but I know it is the best thing. Then my mom, sister and her kids in someways do not care about me or my kids. It is how they treated me and my kids I feel this way. I am with someone but I am wishing I was alone and I do not want sex. I feel the blues, hate myself, just want to hide. I can not explain why I feel this way.

What is going on with me. Why do I feel this way. I told my mom thanks for me being so fk up but does she say she is sorry no. She loves my sister more and cares about her more. It is ok for my sister to visit our mom at her place but I can not. And the same goes for my sister with me. Why do they treat me like this. It seems like they care more for my son then my little girl. There is so much more. I hate the days like the nights. I feel like there is no life in me not even for my kids.

Do anyone feel the same way. Or care enough to help or what ever.