I've been Dxed with Bipolar for ten years after my trauma. They didn't want to deal with me and so they stuck me on meds and pushed me aside. I know I have PTSD, but they're more focused on the diagnosis Bipolar, which doesn't seem realistic to me. The trauma has continued since then, as well. I've had episodes while on medication, but being off of it for the last seven months have proven better for me. Though I've noticed high anxiety, OCD, dissociation, Panic Attacks, and the list goes on. However, I'm not unstable.

I'm turning 18 in three months.

I just don't want to take Geodon and Benedryl because I am more depressed while on Bipolar medication. Then they add more medications to try and stabilize but I haven't found a medication that is stable yet. I just don't want to have an episode of depression and end of killing myself in a fit. I'm doubting Bipolar, especially now. I would have been arrested if I was Bipolar and out of control if front of the high-stress my local Mental Health has put me through.

Is there anything out-of-local I can contact?

Maybe I should file a lawsuit?