I have already sought legal help. I have to wait until the baby is born to even file...because if she is born with health issues that complicates things more and changes things...So it's a waiting game.

I cried for 45 minutes straight to my therapist this morning.
She basically told me that I need to quit my irrational thoughts, she asked me if I needed hospitalized(I said if I ever really thought I was a danger to myself...then yes, but right now I know I won't hurt myself), and she told me to really get my mind off my marriage (easier said then done).
(I was very low yesterday, and I told her exactly what I wrote down in my mood journal...dark things like how I thought I didnt deserve love and my baby didnt deserve someone as horrible as me as a mother...and the truth is that if my baby wasnt in the picture, I mightve hurt myself)
That was yesterday though, and I would never ever harm my baby or myself...she deserves a mother. I'm just paranoid now because I feel like my therapist will call CPS on me because of what I wrote. So now I am stressed about that.

I feel like I really got ot express my true(allthough irrational) feelings and I didn't get yelled at for it.

I am on day 2 of No Contact with him. I haven't even been on FB.

His mother actually called me and asked what I was up to because she saw I wasn't online.