I am really sorry jesonpiano. I wasn't in romania but I was sex trafficked as a child and I have the same issues as you. . It's like I'm not schizophrenic, but I don't remember a lot of my childhood so I missed important building blocks to being an adult. I can't hold a job down, or keep anything organized, no matter how hard I tried. I spent so much of my time surviving as a kid, that developmental stages were skipped. I don't know how to date, I am 24 and I have never dated and socialization was terrible for me, for a long time, it still is, but I'm doing a little better. I still mess up a lot. Sometimes I feel like I skipped just years of developmental stages and I don't know how to get them back. Like you, I just really want to be alone most of the time. And it doesn't really bother me. People tell me I'm isolating and that's sort of annoying.