I know what you mean, having a low self esteem effects the entire life and how you perceive life. I, too, have a bad self esteem, I feel no self worth or value....and I truly believe that effects the way people see me and treat me. I always feel invisible, but I think because of my bad self esteem, I don't stand out or attract people to me.....that probably explains my np friends situation and my horrible marriage, probably because I feel this is what I get and deserve.

I think for people who feel the way you and I do there has to be some sort of answer to get out of feeling this way. Just to find it and live by it is the difficult part.