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Old Jul 28, 2012, 01:41 AM
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Originally Posted by franki_j View Post
I understand where she is coming from, but it doesn't change my belief about myself.
Only you can change your belief about yourself; the CBT is just a tool to help you do that. You can literally decide to think, "Well, I look at so-and-so who does not have a job, we are friends and I do not think they are stupid so, in order for them to like me, I probably am not stupid either." Do not confuse what you believe with what you feel! You cannot control what you feel, that follows belief.

My T was a calm, quiet woman and I was an anxious one. It occurred to me that either the sky was not falling as it felt like it was to me or my T was "crazy" (for not seeing and acting like the sky was falling). I decided the sky must not be falling. Still felt like it was but I acted as if it were not since, logically, it probably was not.

You can feel lousy, be depressed and in a bad mood, etc. but still decide to get up and shower, dress, greet people pleasantly, and go to the library for an hour or two and research job opportunities. No one says it is easy or feels good but, logically, you cannot find a new job while you are in bed sleeping? Doing what needs to be done will change your belief about yourself, positively, and your positive beliefs about yourself will make you feel better. You cannot suddenly wake up at 4:00 in the afternoon and feel positively about yourself when you have not done any positive action to point to.

Start with where you are. You went to therapy and had a good discussion with T, good in that you had an opinion and expressed it "passionately" (you cared). Keep up the good work. You are thoughtful (capable of thought/argued your point), intelligent (believed you saw a flaw in your T's arguments and argued your point forcefully to her and here), hard working (showed up to work with T instead of just rolling over and giving up), etc.
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