Are you on medications, Christy Spirals? What you're experiencing sounds a little more like a reaction to drugs than to bipolar illness, but then everyone's symptoms are probably different. It's the balance you're struggling for, and I hope it comes soon. Try an aspirin--funny as that sounds, my psychiatrist recommended it for the inflammation.

When the "brain's ugly thoughts come", picture them disintegrating into nothingness and being blown far from your brain. That helps.

That's one characteristic that I have, and I've found the answer to it by accepting the fact that they spring from somewhere deep in the unconscious, and all we have to do is let them go--they're meant to be dissolved and released so that the mind remains clean and clear and fresh--swept clean, so to speak.

Genetic