MKAC, I had something similar this week as I've been in a dip, which my Pdoc and I figured out yesterday might very well be linked to decreasing the dosage slightly of one of my meds. I also got back from a 6 week trip 2 weeks ago and transitions are so tough for me. So, over the last 10 days I've been leaning more on T (sthg that took me a while to learn how to do and I agonized over...). Then on Weds all of a sudden I started to get really anxious that I was asking too much of her (again, maybe some of the anxiety was from decreasing one of my mood stabilizers). So I wrote to her on Thurs and flat out asked her, certain that she'd say yes but also remembering to write that I knew that it was her responsibility to put up boundaries that worked for her. She briefly responded that no, she didn't think so, but she would think some about it before our Friday appt. I was simultaneously relieved and a little nervous for our appt. She really surprised me with her 'soul-searching' (she said with a laugh): No, I wasn't too much and asking for too much. There was one small thing that she asked me to be mindful of - not necessarily change, but be aware that it made a part of her uncomfortable sometimes - that she'd prefer that I not write "I love you" in my emails so often, but she understands the child's need to do this. I really appreciated her honesty with me and though I feared that she'd want to change some things, even if I knew it wouldn't be drastic, I feel that having this exchange strengthened our relationship and me. I guess what I'm trying to say is that having a direct conversation with your T can lead to a better than expected outcome, it's worth a shot. We've talked about this on other threads--learning how to accept what T gives us because he/she wants to without fear that we're asking for too much is a very valuable lesson. Good luck.
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