gettingby,

I know how you feel. I have had that same issue before with indifference. For a long time I was very indifferent to my fiance, which caused issues in our relationship. I think that those with BPD do this because we are so afraid of abandonment that we won't even let ourselves get close in the first place. It is a vicious cycle.

Just know that if you really are meant to be, the indifference will pass. Please work on this issue with your T if you can, it should help you.