Im sorry your anxiety is so high right now .. Just "try" and relax. I think the email you sent was straight from your heart. You let him know just how much he means to you and that you have needs that aren't being met.

He basically has emotionally abused you ( for a long time. Seeing other women, not being there for you emotionally and all the other ways he has disrespected you )... Its not unlike physical abuse when you really get down the the bottom of it all ..

Its all about Respect ! Something YOU deserve... Never settle my friend !

Know we are all here for you

If I overspoke I'm sorry I just felt the need to be blunt.