((((DD)))) I am so sorry...this must be so painful and confusing. Take good care of you and know you are doing the best you can for where you are at this moment. If it is too much and creates too much pain, do not force yourself. A nice card or flowers to the family is always appreciated. And maybe later, when you are feeling stronger/ or in a better place, you can say your good byes in person then.

Hugs to you,
Rose