Peanut,
I think that is an interesting statement, not knowing if you want to go back. I wonder if that is a common thing. We spend a large amount of time and energy dealing with these problems and in doing so we learn so much about ourselves. It makes me wonder how many people who go through this come to the conclussion that the new person they have found in themselves doesn't really want to go back to the old life.
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft