yep that makes loads of sense Ophelia...

considering the 'penalties' when it don't work...I know I never recovered from a 'first love' experience twenty years ago and still I bash my unloved head against the 'wall of vague hate' (hehe sounds like some harry potter prop)

...needy me just watched a movie and got me all emotional yeah what a luxury and these people were going through memories of dear ones to survive and damn I got sucked right in...aaaaah!

but it all just turns me into useless goop!

...it's like...."dum de dum de da....dum de dum...what??..over there?? LOVE YA FREAKING FOREVER I'M GONNA DIE! ...horribly so much damn it HURTS so what get the F outa here!......."

...."whats the time?, whats my name?, where was I goin'? I hate that place ....oh crap I'm lost ....who are you? can I borrow your car?...oh it's my car?? I'm so weird....everybody sux get away!!

yikes