My first job at 17 was at McDonald's. It was supposed to be fulltime but I was lucky if I got 12 hours a week. I was told it was because I didn't do a good job. My next job was at a newspaper and I was constantly yelled at by my boss. I have been fired at least a dozen times. I have good attendance and I work hard but I've never been fast enough nor accurate enough. I have a degree in journalism and not being able to find a job in that I went back to school and studied word processing and other computer applications as well as medical terminology. I was still bombarded with complaints that I wasn't fast enough and wasn't accurate enough. I am on the verge of losing my job now as a data entry clerk because I am took slow. I am 56. My wrists ache. I am living in a state I don't want to live in. I moved here because my mother was in her last years. Now that she's dead and I have no relatives nor friends I am stuck in a state where I don't want to live. I am planning on a retirement or semi-retirement at 62 so I can leave this state. Right now I am not at the point where I can go. It is so frustrating not being able to do a good job and getting called in all the time. I don't know what's the matter with me.