well i can't call you an alcoholic tho i am one. here's what i do know. binge drinking causes more havoc and damage on your organs especially the liver due to larger quanity intake over a shorter period of time. many binge drinkers find their binges closer and closer eventually indicating alcoholism. or some bingers are already alcoholics and some are not. it's difficult to acknowledge the problem sometimes cause it's not every day drinking. but binge drinking is another form of alcoholism if you've crossed the imaginary line. some binge drinkers are not alcoholic but they do suffer misfortune in their daily lives as a consequence of excessive binge drinking. imo the direct cause of excessive drinking can only be caused by the person who wants to drink. other people don't have any control in reality of how much we drink or not drink. only we "own" the behavior. blaming is just trying to put the focus on the other person. being around accepting drinkers will not help. controlling our drinking problem is non-existant. alcohol controls us. it tells us when to drink and how much we drink.
they say if your life is unmanageable when we drink we have a problem. it sounds like this is what you're experiencing. here are some helpful sites. not all binge drinkers have become alcoholic yet but they do abuse alcohol which can result in alcoholism. i don't know where your situation stands. http://www.brighteyecounselling.co.u...-an-alcoholic/
http://psychcentral.com/lib/2006/fre...ut-alcoholism/
here are some questions you may want to ask yourself-why do i drink?
what emotions am i trying to avoid therefore drinking? What emotions am i seeking to gain drinking alcohol?
you may not have a problem with alcohol abuse or you may. only you can decide.
glad u posted. hope my info may help.