(((BatsandButterflies))),

What you are really seeing in your parents is that they "don't know how to respect each other's boundaries". The problem with them is because they are "both" coming from a position of not wanting to "give in" they end up throwing things and never really getting anything established when they communicate. They are probably bringing their issues home from their jobs as well.

This is something they never learned growing up, they both probably grew up in some kind of disfuction where they never got to express their emotions and even be validated. So their interactions all express a need to be validated and neither of them know how to do that. They are pushing against each other when they both need the same thing. I have struggled with this in my own relationship with my husband and it is for the reasons I just discribed. I can be talking about something important to me and he can just walk away to do something else and "not hear me".

The bottom line is that your parents are in desperate need of marriage counceling so they can learn how to share and respect each other verses "throwing things around and yelling all the time".

No wonder why you can't wait to go back to school, your parents probably don't listen to you either.

I can relate to you so much, right down to playing my guitar and singing in my room.
But with me, my father didn't let me go to music school where I should have gone and been exposed to good mentors that recognized my talents and needs.

I am sure you find your own highs, but by being around the disfuction your parents present to you, the lows come back to just get you down again. I had that too, my parents didn't really "see me" the way I needed them to. These lows are the stress you feel because of your confusing environment.

Your parents need this "marriage counceling" so they don't do this same disfunction with your baby brother.

Copy my post and give it to them. They need to know they have to change and not do this in front of yet another child.

It is time for your parents to see they have some "issues" they need to work through and stop "yelling" and stomping around like children.
(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes