Welcome to PC and this forum.

I relate to this post, as well.

I have been sick and not online much.

I relate especially to that build up, flutter out, pattern of friend making. I am pretty tired of that and maybe that's why I don't feel so much like doing it now.

I was diagnosed with bpd in 2001. I don't h ave a pdoc now cause I got shot down because of this diagnosis and my community resources' inability and unavailability to treat me.

I am also not on any meds because they did not help me either.

I am on the dbtselfhelp site often and on here.

Again, welcome. I hope you find a lot of support here.

Billi