The indifference you seem to be feeling is very familiar to me. I always wonder why I can't bring myself to the level of commitment and adoration that my partner always has. I have struggled with this for years, and I'm ashamed to admit it I always found myself cheating. I would hope that maybe this new person will love me "the right way" and not do something in the relationship to upset me and cause me to hate them.

It's hard and it takes a lot of work, but I have hope for all of us out there that struggle with this. Maybe it's just the inner romantic in me, or the years of watching the classic Disney type romances.

And I sympathize with you about all the information out there for non-BPDs in relationships. It seems like there's far more resources out there for people to just "deal" with us instead of helping us try to cope. What outrages me is that most of these resources are condemning and labeling BPDs with the terrible stereotypes that have plagued us for years, instead of offering understanding and advice.

Whatever, maybe someday people will learn.