So I just started reading this book: "Bipolar Disorder a Guide for Patients and Families" by Francis Mark Mondimore, M.D..
I have read it before but not all the way through just certain chapters and sections, its very professionally written and but easy to read.
I'm going to try and read it front to back. If my add will let me.

So in the 1st chapter it talks about normal and abnormal mood:

He writes: When we're in a low mood, an opposite set of feelings takes over (this is after he wrote about a normal/good mood). We tend to turn inward and may seem preoccupied or distracted by our thoughts.
The word sad captures some of the experience, but low mood is a bit more complicated. There may be a sense of emptiness and loss.
It's difficult to think abut the future very much, and when one does, it's hard not to be pessimistic or even intimidated by it.
We may lose our temper more easily and then feel guilty about having done so. It's difficult to be affectionate or sociable, so we avoid others and prefer to be alone. Energy is low. Self doubt takes over; we become preoccupied, worrying about how other people see us.

This is me, me me. I can relate to every single word. omg.

Anyone else see themselves in this?