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Originally Posted by alinaself
There is the me that everyone sees, and then there is the creature inside me. It frightens me. it needs power and freedom and wildness and passion and rage all the time and it never stops trying to get them, but I as a person am reserved and forced to be polite and careful and responsible and rational. Society expects certain things, but the thing inside me needs to scream for no reason and cry for the sake of it, needs to punch the wall until my fist bleeds and click my back and neck to the point where I feel it might break. I am part of this other thing, and it part of me, but it is not all me, I don't understand it and it feels so real, but I know it is not. help, I don't know what to do
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Hi Alinaself,
I can very much relate to the section I quoted. On the outside you look and act very different than how you feel on the inside and eventually it just gets bigger and bigger until you cant contain it anymore. Im sorry you had to go through what you went through. Just letting you know that you are not alone in how you feel. Hang in there!
Struggling