Hey,
I really like the wording of that, it's kind of...what I've been trying to say but couldn't find the words for, in a sense. Is it that you just feel...dead? As if your just watching your life from the sidelines and nothing about it is exciting, it's as if you were dragged there to watch it all without a choice? I don't know if I got the right thing out of what you were trying to say, but if you ever need someone to talk to, or you just want someone to listen I'm always here.