Her name is Ashlyn.

Had a dr. appt. today...and I was diagnosed with a condition called Vaginismus.
Makes sex and exams painful...and will force me to get an epidural or csection because all natural will be impossible for me.

The cause of the condition? They have no idea, but they couldn't rule out vaginal cancer.

So I will have to be treated and tested after birth...tested for cancer and treated for the condition.(I wont be able to be treated completely without a sexual partner though...I can only do pre-intercourse steps)

I called my stbxh to tell him about my condition and my testing worries(since it could effect the baby). He asked me if they tested me yet, and I said no. Then all he could tell me was that he bought a new car and would have mine down by the end of next week. (That hurt a little...I was expecting a little more compassion, but oh well)

So, yeah, Ive come to the point where I am letting him go...because I love him and I want him to be happy. I will probably always love him and I will probably not seek anyone else to remarry. But that's okay.

Atleast the baby is healthy.