I'm feeling a little weird tonight. It seems like a lot of the people who have recently terminated gave their T a card/letter. I didn't do this. (And why the HECK are there so many of us who recently terminated? Yuck.)

T2 suggested that I give T1 a letter if I was having a hard time saying how I felt. I didn't really think I was having a hard time describing how I felt about T1 when I was talking to T2.

Instead, told T1 in person that I felt sad. He seemed to be trying to get me to say more but I didn't really have anything else to say? It wasn't like I had something else I wanted to express but was holding back. I was sad. Period. Is there supposed to be more? I told him he was helpful and funny.

I am considering sending T1 a thank you with picture of me on the Zipline excursion of my upcoming cruise. I was pretty much agoraphobic when I started therapy, and I'm afraid of heights, so this ziplining thing will be pretty cool. But then I feel sort of stupid about the whole thing. Is it worth the trouble? Is it going to make me feel like a clingy idiot? I'm allowed to contact him, so that part of it is within the range of acceptable. I can't decide if my "eew" factor in this is my problem with intimacy. I think it might be? Just the idea of posting this thread is starting to bother me & make me feel grossly needy.

Is the thank you letter supposed to be for me or for him? I feel very weird about the whole thing. It is confusing. I am going to talk to T2 about it this week, but I'm open to opinions here as well. Thanks.